remembering

now that school is over and show season is done, i feel like i can take a breath and remember what things are important to me...

the moon
poetry
solitude
cleaning house
new friends
family
a new nephew
books
old friends
community
soaking
loving
photography
painting
creating
adventuring

thoughts...

every workplace has drama. it's not much different than high school in some ways. i think we all think that when we finish school and leave adolescence behind, that the drama will end and we can finally grow up. well, this idea does not take into consideration this little thing called human nature.

lately, there has been an incredible amount of drama at my work. there is usually always a high level of it, but recently it's mushroomed out of control. completely out of control. most of it doesn't really have much to do with me, some of it does, but it all is totally out of my hands.

i am the kind of person that wants everything to work out and everybody to get a long. i think this time, i need to face the reality that i can't fix this. i can't fix people and i can't fix life. that's not my job.

it is times like this when i am grateful for things like hope and grace. without these i think i'd pretty much just shrivel up and fall into some sort of vortex of depression.

but, when i think back on my life and remember other times when the drama of life seemed to overwhelm me, seemed to be like that bell jar that has no exit--yet, hope still found a way to grow and grace brought change, then i know that this time will be no different.

He is faithful. He is good. And no matter what we do, He is who He is.

thank God.

I'm an auntie!!

isaiah david staab

born july 24th 2007

7 lbs 15 oz

21.5 inches long

Too Many Books?

Is there such a thing? I usually would say no, no never. However, yesterday after shifting a bunch of things around in the house to make room for two more roomates, and seeing the piles of books on my floor, making it near impossible to nagivate through my room, I began to wonder if I just might have too many. I don't want to put them in boxes, hidden away. I don't want to sell them. I want to keep them and keep them in plain sight. I really need a library, but at the moment rent money looks more attractive than me having a room for my books, so I guess in piles they will stay.

Coming soon: (and I wait impatiently...)


Isaiah David Staab

Dell XPS M1210

Camp

The Next Trip to Starbucks to use One of my Gift Cards

A New Dog

Finding out who the New Gummi Bear will Be

The Release of the New Lawhead

Today is a good day to be thankful for

instant message
reading blogs of people i don't know, but hope to meet someday
friends who pass on tidbits about music i need to check out
a basement remodel for under a hundred bucks
quiet days at the office
fat paychecks
waiting to meet my nephew
starbucks gift cards
two new roomates soon to arrive

Birthday Phone Calls

I know that for me, one of my favorite parts of having a birthday is all the phone calls I get. It makes me feel so loved and popular when my friends and family call me and sing silly renditions of happy birthday.

Yesterday was my birthday.

And I got lots of phone calls.

HOWEVER...

I was stuck in rehearsals all day for a BABO (big ass breakout) at WPC in Denver doing backstage technical support--Low lights, headsets, producer calling the show, etc... So, I couldn't answer my phone even though I knew that people were calling ME!

Thank God for voice mail. And thank you to everyone who left me messages yesterday and yes, I forgive you if you didn't call me. I'm sure you had a very good reason. I wouldn't have answered anyway.

Shopping list to buy before I fly to Denver:

1. aveda hair products
2. bliss fabulous foaming face wash
3. book: Annie Dillard, The Maytrees
4. AE boyfriend 77 jean
5. book: Chrisopher Paolini, Eldest

My Birthday is in 7 Days

...and though I already had a party, but if anyone is in the mood to buy me a present, I just found what I want.